New Beginnings?

Finally found a new apartment, I know my wife is gonna be thrilled because this was the one apartment that she really really liked. Now for the tough part of moving in as well as signing the lease tomorrow.

Of Thanksgiving

its the eve of thanksgiving and im sipping a smithwicks listening to some jazz...crummy weather outside but life demands that i go pick up some groceries :)

to all of you with your families and loved ones, have a super happy thanksgiving. to those (like myself) who are away from your families, a happy thanksgiving to you and those that you yearn to be with

Another Dali

Picked up another dali lithograph...

Paradise Chant 26 Dante Recovers His Sight (WOODBLOCK ENGRAVED SIGNED).. this is part of the Divine Comedy series

Poetry for my wife and family

Saudade again, miss my wife and family....

I'm over the hill, on the other side
Staring into the rays of the sun
The night behind me, my fears they hide,
A brand new day has begun.

Looking up to the sky and a new start on life
Would this be my achilles heel
To try and try again, not recognize failure
But to stand up and go the road ahead

I regret that i havent spent more time
With those that i love the best
One of those i cared for is long gone
And i need to work with the rest

I miss you with every beat in my pulse,
I breathe your name in my sleep
You are doing what needs you most,
For that my dear, i cannot fault you deep

I am going to reset, and find my way home
To you mother, sister and you my best friend
We'll be together just like before,
And my sadness will find its end

Second last weekend of the semester

Got done with the Fin Acctg test, did quite well actually 26/30, better than the crap i score in the last one.

Ooh, also managed to pick up my first authentic Salvador Dali (pencil signed) Lithograph.. I'm really psyched and can't wait for it to be delivered. It's one of his less surrealistic pieces of art called "Jerusalem Bible", and its pretty. Not exactly expecting the "Persistence of memory" simply because i don't have that kind of money..

Financial Accounting and then some more

got home in the wee hours of the morning from Chicago. Flights delayed due to crummy weather on the east coast. I think i'm running on overdrive given that i've slept only 4 hrs today. Managed to catch up on my marketing reading (pricing/branding etc) and now am playing catch up on financial accounting. gotta admit i love the subject but each exam throws me into a tizzy :)

ah well, tomorrow is another day ... smoked a nice rocky patel 1990 vintage cigar sitting outside on the deck in the cold, reading...

am wondering if my life has more meaning than just this.. stress and more stress. lack of relaxed weekends. i do miss my partner (my wife) terribly, she's such a treat to have around, a great companion. well, gotta wait until xmas eve till she gets back (or i find my way to goa before that to see her).

am off to joes place in a few to grab dinner with him and study for the test tomm, i know he wants me to just crash over there and leave for class directly in the morning (very nice of him actually)..somehow i just want to sleep in my own bed for a change. i've travelled close to 20k miles in the past 3 weeks, i'm tired, i need a break from my career life (yeah i know i sound like a whiny biach...yeah i know)

33 today

Gosh, i turn 33 today. Went to the Ram Brewery to have a quick beer and a crab sandwich. Had the Buttface Amber Ale, was really good actually.

I feel old.....

Benjamin Breeg

Yes, who IS benjamin breeg.. up the irons

To those taking a turn

Life has its own ups and downs and sometimes people are faced with the really hard decision to bond together or move on. To those that have decided to move on, you know you are making the right decision for yourselves, focus on that light at the end of the tunnel, its a long tunnel, but you will eventually get there...

consider me a well wisher. always!

early am

Woke up with a heavy head, and all these thoughts swirling through it...for once in my life i couldn't understand why.. no emotions were attached besides saudade...and then it struck me, it was about the one painting that always has me thinking....



~ Persistence of memory - To the surrealistic maestro ~

The passage of time, seems like today is yesterday
My memories fade, people i know have gone away
Pictures, stills in the fabric that never rests
Somehow i tend to remember the best

I'm holding hands with you, a compadre, a lover, maybe a friend?
I cannot recall, how did it end?
Separate ways? a fork in our lives
Or was it just life being life, taking over our ties?

Children in a backyard, playing games together,
Now adults with a motive, not wanting one another,
Innocence so lost, and love in between
If it could be undone, it never should have been

Looking forward, into a grey future,
Trying to beat time, and mother nature,
My body starts to fade, memories wane,
Yet, some part of me wants to be that child again.

Evil bloodmire is back

Evil bloodmire has been sitting on me all day today... go away evil bloodmire...

Alone! Once again by myself,
in a room filled with things,
my personal hell,
no feelings, no touch,

Cauterized at the emotional level,
I wonder about my normalcy
I know I know that all is not well
Will that be my fallacy?

My eyes empty, the whites turn dark,
My heart is breaking out of my chest
Evil, even if just for a lark
In my craziness with a smile I will always find a nest

I scheme and devise, nothing goes through me
I see them looking, waiting...
For an opportunity to screw me
over, i'm ahead, im smiling, you don't know it.

Wife leaves town

My wife has left town to help out her ailing father in Goa, India. Gosh, i felt so empty driving back from the airport after I said goodbye to her..shes gone for 30+ days approximately. I guess I realized how much i enjoy having her next to me..we're like partners in crime, buddies..and we find happiness in our companionship.

Awright my dear, here's to a safe trip, and to yr dads speedy recovery. ATBB

Picture with my neice

Picture with one of my favorite people in the whole world