What I really want to say

A month of disappointments,
and 12 years of despair,
you, a dirty whoring mistress,
me, your customer in that chair.

I'm looking above the muddy windows,
and grasping for reed,
fresh scents as the wind blows,
there must be some place for my breed?


I want to turn back and spit in your face,
and say things so vile,
its a marathon not a race,
and relationships i wont defile.

I will turn my back and walk off,
into that setting sun,
too long have I been your cash cow,
Fuck you, so long, and its been fun

Well Written

To Remember Me By Robert Noel Test (1926-1994)

The day will come when my body will lie upon a white sheet neatly tucked under four corners of a mattress located in a hospital busily occupied with the living and the dying. At a certain moment a doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function and that, for all intents and purposes, my life has stopped.

When that happens, do not attempt to instill artificial life into my body by the use of a machine. And don't call this my deathbed. Let it be called the Bed of Life, and let my body be taken from it to help others lead fuller lives.
Give my sight to a man who has never seen a sunrise, a baby's face or love in the eyes of a woman.

Give my heart to a person whose own heart has pain.
Give my blood to the teen-ager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he might live to see his grandchildren play.
Give my kidneys to one who depends on a machine to exist from week to week.
Take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to make a crippled child walk.
Explore every corner of my brain.
Take my cells, if necessary, and let them grow so that, someday, a speechless boy will shout at the crack of a bat and a deaf girl will hear the sound of rain against her windows.
Burn what is left of me and scatter the ashes to the winds to help the flowers grow.

If you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weaknesses and all my prejudice against my fellow beings.
Give my sins to the devil. Give my soul to God. If, by chance, you wish to remember me, do it with a kind deed or word to someone who needs you.
If you do all I have asked, I will live forever.

15 years and counting

I'm tired of this life,
there's no reason
why I should continue to fuel this existance
I'm worn out by this struggle, to make ends meet
Yet, unable to find my calling.

I'm around because of you,
I know my exit will break your heart,
I'm around because I want to protect you,
from everything bad, and sinister out there
I live, and yearn for our times together.


--- this one's for you my dear - you are always missed, wish we could spend more time together!

Family trip in canada

shuttled over to toronto to see my sis and niece over the weekend - long ass bus journey but must say very economical on megabus! had a lovely time with the family, usual food, beers, arguments and horsing around like we were a bunch of kids :)

Getting back into it

running, eating healthier, running some more. Feels good.

The Runner

I see you, staring back at me from the mirror of my mind,
Love, for the miles, the breathlessness
Fear of not doing it everday
Determination to drive myself more through life's mess

When I run, I'm free,
Like mercury on wings of desire
Fleet footed, must be my mind
As Morrison said, C'mon baby light my fire

The Move

Been all over the place for the past few weeks. Went to India for 5 days, meetings, meetings and more meetings. The highlight was meeting my mom in bombay, attending Palm sunday mass with her and then seeing her again for good friday and holy saturday. Small pleasures in this hectic life we lead.

Back to Boston - Philly madness. Home today (on a tuesday and thats unusual) and packing to move to the new place ! Excited Yes! Stressed Yes...More to come.

The last week of travel

monday: atl-boston
tuesday: boston-wash dc-boston
wednesday: boston-raleigh
thursday: raleigh-philly

i need a life!

Back in the US

India (Mumbai/Kolkata) and then Paris .... finally back to the grind in the US..tax time too!