I am a refraction,
of light and through pigments,
though transparent in my thought
dont know about where that sanity went

the loneliness, its getting to me
comfort in the arms of my best friend
someone so far away
cant wait, for these moments to end

the beckoning and nearness
that i share with you
i said i wanted you under my skin
my love, you know its true!

The Counselor

fave dialog from the movie - between the Jefe and the counselor

I would urge you to see the truth of your situation. It is not for me to say what you should have done. Or not done. I only know that the world in which you seek to undo your mistakes is not the world in which they were made. You are at a cross in the road, and here you think to choose. But here there is no choosing. There is only accepting. The choosing was done long ago.

Twinkle Twinkle North Star

Working with this software vendor has made me absolutely nuts...an ode to that company

Twinkle twinkle little north star,
how very difficult you are,
up above a world so high,
dealing with makes me cry,

 

When they show their migration code,
i feel like Genghis is attacking with his horde,
but then again the day gets good,
because i like wine and i like food

Friends and Debbie Downers

So i am back in the local area shlepping to and from a certain old client. Great to be back with friends - horrible to work with the same bullshit IT department all over again.

Happy New Year

onward and forward into life. for those that i care about: my wife, my family and good friends - here's wishing you all a very happy 2012.

What I really want to say

A month of disappointments,
and 12 years of despair,
you, a dirty whoring mistress,
me, your customer in that chair.

I'm looking above the muddy windows,
and grasping for reed,
fresh scents as the wind blows,
there must be some place for my breed?


I want to turn back and spit in your face,
and say things so vile,
its a marathon not a race,
and relationships i wont defile.

I will turn my back and walk off,
into that setting sun,
too long have I been your cash cow,
Fuck you, so long, and its been fun

Well Written

To Remember Me By Robert Noel Test (1926-1994)

The day will come when my body will lie upon a white sheet neatly tucked under four corners of a mattress located in a hospital busily occupied with the living and the dying. At a certain moment a doctor will determine that my brain has ceased to function and that, for all intents and purposes, my life has stopped.

When that happens, do not attempt to instill artificial life into my body by the use of a machine. And don't call this my deathbed. Let it be called the Bed of Life, and let my body be taken from it to help others lead fuller lives.
Give my sight to a man who has never seen a sunrise, a baby's face or love in the eyes of a woman.

Give my heart to a person whose own heart has pain.
Give my blood to the teen-ager who was pulled from the wreckage of his car, so that he might live to see his grandchildren play.
Give my kidneys to one who depends on a machine to exist from week to week.
Take my bones, every muscle, every fiber and nerve in my body and find a way to make a crippled child walk.
Explore every corner of my brain.
Take my cells, if necessary, and let them grow so that, someday, a speechless boy will shout at the crack of a bat and a deaf girl will hear the sound of rain against her windows.
Burn what is left of me and scatter the ashes to the winds to help the flowers grow.

If you must bury something, let it be my faults, my weaknesses and all my prejudice against my fellow beings.
Give my sins to the devil. Give my soul to God. If, by chance, you wish to remember me, do it with a kind deed or word to someone who needs you.
If you do all I have asked, I will live forever.

15 years and counting

I'm tired of this life,
there's no reason
why I should continue to fuel this existance
I'm worn out by this struggle, to make ends meet
Yet, unable to find my calling.

I'm around because of you,
I know my exit will break your heart,
I'm around because I want to protect you,
from everything bad, and sinister out there
I live, and yearn for our times together.


--- this one's for you my dear - you are always missed, wish we could spend more time together!

Family trip in canada

shuttled over to toronto to see my sis and niece over the weekend - long ass bus journey but must say very economical on megabus! had a lovely time with the family, usual food, beers, arguments and horsing around like we were a bunch of kids :)

Getting back into it

running, eating healthier, running some more. Feels good.

The Runner

I see you, staring back at me from the mirror of my mind,
Love, for the miles, the breathlessness
Fear of not doing it everday
Determination to drive myself more through life's mess

When I run, I'm free,
Like mercury on wings of desire
Fleet footed, must be my mind
As Morrison said, C'mon baby light my fire

The Move

Been all over the place for the past few weeks. Went to India for 5 days, meetings, meetings and more meetings. The highlight was meeting my mom in bombay, attending Palm sunday mass with her and then seeing her again for good friday and holy saturday. Small pleasures in this hectic life we lead.

Back to Boston - Philly madness. Home today (on a tuesday and thats unusual) and packing to move to the new place ! Excited Yes! Stressed Yes...More to come.

The last week of travel

monday: atl-boston
tuesday: boston-wash dc-boston
wednesday: boston-raleigh
thursday: raleigh-philly

i need a life!

Back in the US

India (Mumbai/Kolkata) and then Paris .... finally back to the grind in the US..tax time too!

Merry Christmas

To all of you :) What a great year it has been thus far!!!

Older Budweiser

37 today, wonder if i have 10 miles in me? already woke up with a creaky knee!!!


12:14PM: DONE IT....10 Miles 89 mins, proud of this accomplishment...feel tired tho...

i know my better half will be proud too :) this one's for you my dear..your old man can run!!!

Funny Shit

just landed at philly airport after a fantastic steering committee presentation. am sitting here waiting for my sweetheart to show up and here goes a stupidly funny ad i saw:

Updates

OK, some updates from the recent past:

Wife leaves town for a period of a little over three weeks and here's what I had been up to:

Weekend 1:
Friday: Stayed back in boston at the westin waterfront. friday started out with a drink with our current cambridge clients, proceeded to eat some crappy food and drown a few beers...
Saturday: Woke up late, omkar over and we hang at chinatown for dim sum, watched the movie "Red" -- fairly funny and then on to Oishi sushi for dinner with the turk and omkar, followed by drinks at Post 390 in boston
Sunday: Low key. spent day at omkars apartment eating shwarma and washing clothes, more discovery channel

Weekend 2:
Friday: Flew out to columbus OH to meet keith and family. what a great time seeing them all over again. dealt with some work issues over the phone while sipping beers @ keiths place. Burgers and hotdogs for dinner over the bbq, Had a wierd neighbor of keiths stop by and bore us to death. Went to bed by 1030
Saturday: Late morning leaving keiths place, whitecastle for burgers as was our old ritual followed by my first experience shooting guns -- 38 revolver. Went from nervous to overconfident to nervous again as a bullet ricocheted off the target holder. Came back to keiths, terri had made some fantastic ribs and beans..more beers.
Sunday: Spent the day at Leighner Farms (Sp?) picking pumpkins as was their family tradition prior to halloween each year. shot some pumpkins in the air...light fun day followed by Lasagna at keiths place

Weekend 3:
Friday: Flew back thursday night, did the client orals on friday am in princeton, drove down to participate on the wharton business panel. Picked up omkar at 30th street around 8pm and headed to Genos for cheesesteaks...omkar was blown away by the spices. Scotch and beers at my place followed by the movie Beerfest
Saturday: Spent the am taking omkar shopping to banana republic, amrut shows up around 4, grumbles about tea, drinks some tea, grumbles that we are watching too much tv. deborshi around 7pm, beers, chicken, tilapia and egg bhurji (a-la omkar)!!!
Sunday: late start to day with amrut and omkar. amrut eats some pulao and leaves around 1pm saying he has a migraine (he doesnt drink tho). omkar and i head down to genos right before he gets on the 4pm bus...couldnt think of a cheesesteak as omkar walloped his down...came back and ran a 5 miler after a week of fattiness!!!

Weekend 4:

Wife gets back wednesday, i see her in atl thursday...am excited to be reunited with my better half again!!!

Columbus

hanging out with an old friend and his family after 6 years, what a wonderful time to reconnect. i miss my wife though :)

Sunday

Spoke to my sweetheart this morning, was good to hear her voice. Now she needs to pick a name for the family kukkur :)

Ran a 5er this evening, will wrap it up with some kababs and a nice glass of the Corte Majoli Valpolicella Ripasso that I opened last night.

Cant wait for Friday am to hold my best friend and partner-in-crime in my arms again !